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| If im upset about something
if you realise what it was that hurt me or I told you what it was, apologise
or
say
'ill make it up to you, i didnt realise that ment so much to you'
or
'Oh dear, I didnt know....I had plans/ideas for us this week or 'insert date'..do you think youd like to do that still?'
I want you to fight for me...make an effort, so maybe a sign of compassion
not silence or a shrug
I cant bear that..it drives me crazy, it goes from upset/crying to MAD, and I mean, spikes and claws mad.
usually just talking about it smoothes my ruffled furr, because I need to let out what im feeling..ill not likely yell or swear..unless silence or apathy come into play and ignoring the problem makes it x10fold worse for me.....
So just
make an effort at least.
It doesnt even have to be major either.
Men like persuit most of the time, but when emotion comes in they run..but its during emotion (at least for me) where I need to be persued the most, that they actually want me and arent 'all for the booty' if you get my drift.
*sigh*
Im not sure how many women feel this, but I definately do. | |
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| hrm...
NZ peoples..
is it full moon tonight or tomorrow...im looking right at it...but I cant tell O.o;
I MUST have company on full moon, or ill go insane. Were-Mooner time, need much howls.
::edit::
Full moon is 2nd/3rd (thanks Dakota!)
So likely to be full on thursday.
is anyone free to hang out wed or thurs???
remember, I is in Aucklands now. | |
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| Ive been dreaming in vivid and alarmingly real-feeling dreams.
So far that its messing with my mind.
I feel like im going insane.
I keep trying to work on art or crafts or even internet, but my mind keeps drifting back to those images and scenes and I end up staring into space..
One of the dreams was beautiful..the other was heart wrenching, horrifying and totally messed me up.
Along the same note... turns out the 4th anniversary of Shrycull's passing was this week. It really feels less than that...im astounded.
He was in one of the dreams....and he is intermittantly in my dreams over the years.
I didnt get to see the waterfall at the con. Its a shame really..I need to be near a water source to re-charge. I wonder if I can catch a bus to a beach? I wonder where the beaches are...
I have another appointment for Freelance animation on the 14th. Gotta fill out the rest of my forms. - Emotion splat:lonely
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| Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.
How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.
Storm,
In the morning light,
I feel,
No more can I say,
Frozen to myself.
I got nobody on my side,
And surely that ain't right,
Surely that ain't right.
Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.
How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.
How can it feel this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong.
Oh, can't anybody see,
We've got a war to fight,
Never found our way,
Regardless of what they say.
How can it feel, this wrong,
From this moment,
How can it feel, this wrong - Emotion splat:depressed
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| Friday, go with Raknar, Firewolf and Lopfe' to Lopfe's corset fitting. Time, unknown.
Saturday, go with Raknar, Firewolf and Lopfe' to Furconz for the day, Time unknown, pref early so we can fit in lots of fun
Sunday, go with Bree, Daniel, Durin, Rarakie, and Dakota to furconz for the day, Time unknown.
To do list:
Bring art supplies to furconz for Moxie badge and other badges/sketchbooks.
Call frieght to see what day they can get my stuff to my house, eta to auckland depot is friday, but trapseing it to my address, unknown.
Sadly might not get to mooner-suit. very sad times.
Remember not to forget the $ for the day passes
If frieght arrives, bring:
Lopfe's birthday gifts
Nipper's commission
Costume for suting | |
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| I took Durin to dinner and to see Thisisit for his belated birthday present. (well he drove, I paid, I cant drive lol) We had epic fun and win because food and noms = much love. WINZ is all sorted so I get to go food shopping tomorrow and pay my rent. Im hoping hoping ill have some $ left over so I can fun times with everyone at the con on Sunday. Not sure if ill be suiting, as my frieght truck of belongings hasnt arrived yet. I want my pillow damnit! And my shoes that arent sneakers...and my dvds..and my toys. *sadfaces everywhere* I hope to the gods on high that nothing is broken, I hope with every ounce of me. Durin, I look forward to a future trip to the neigh-neighs and meeting mr wee man...bah his name escapes me..Noah? Potential Arabian Squee!
uhm what else.
My back is killing me, its been difficult to art without my art desk here *grumbles* Or use more than just my laptop..one plug...I need my multi plug adapter darnit!
Im definately missing cuddles and hugs so I will steal plenty on Sunday. So there. - Emotion splat:flirty
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| Guilty? Or Innocent? RULE 1
You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2
You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
Now, here's what you're supposed to do... And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your journal , delete my answers, type in your answers.
Kissed one of your DA friends?
Guilty.
Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent.
Ever told a lie?
Guilty.
Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
Guilty
Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty.
Kissed a picture?
Guilty.
Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty.
Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty.
Held a snake?
Innocent.
Been suspended from school?
Innocent.
Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent.
Been fired from a job?
Innocent.
Done something you regret?
Guilty.
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Innocent.
Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty.
Kissed in the rain?
Innocent.
Sat on a roof top?
Innocent
Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Innocent.
Sang in the shower?
Guilty.
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent.
Shaved your head?
Innocent.
Slept naked?
Guilty.
Had a boxing membership?
Innocent.
Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty.
Donated Blood?
Innocent.
Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent.
Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty.
Still love someone you shouldn't?
Guilty.
Have/had a tattoo?
Guilty.
Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty.
Been too honest?
Guilty.
Ruined a surprise?
Innocent.
Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterward?
Guilty.
Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty.
Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty.
Joined a pageant?
Innocent.
Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty.
Had communication w/ your ex?
Guilty.
Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Guilty.
A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney/tricycle fare?
Innocent.
Get so angry that you cried?
Guilty.
Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Guilty.
Thought about suicide
Guilty.
Thought about murder?
Guilty.
How bout mass murder?
Guilty.
Tried illegal drugs and the like?
Innocent.
Rode on a stranger's vehicle?
Guilty.
Stalked someone?
Guilty.
Been so drunk that you forget things that happened while you were intoxicated?
Innocent.
Had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Guilty.
In love?
Guilty. | |
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| "You know how sometimes people on your f-list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes."
1. First Name
Rose
2. Age
24
3. Location
Auckland, NZ
4. Occupation
Student next year for Animation school
Artist/freelancer part time
Looking for 'real job' at current to pay bills (Auckland is expensive!)
5. Partner
None
6. Kids
Not at current, but I do want some, weither biological or adopted. Right now my Kitty is my child.
7. Brothers/Sisters
Brother is 14 (half brother, Seperate father)
Sister is 6 (Half sister, seperate father, current husband to my mum)
8. Pets
Littlefood Balieys Motzart, Burmease cross grey tuxedo turning 4 next year, was born valentines day.
Gizmo Mogwait Hand (Moomoo or fattymoo) 2yrs, Now lives with my EX (we are still best friends though so I can visit her)
9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life
The passing of Michael Jackson, whom I loved since I was 5yrs
Moving to Auckland to start a new life
My belonging not arriving yet
Orca sightings nearby
Personal changes
10. Parents
I still havent seen my biological dad since I was 7yrs
My mum is remarried (x3rd time) and has moved to the usa to live with her daughter (my half sister) and current husband.
11. Who are some of your closest friends?
(closest for me means knows ALOT about me, personal things, people who id hug or feel comfortable hanging out with, or eating in front of, would share my bed with -nothing sexual, just sharing my own personal space-)
I have an open heart though
In RL where I live:
Lopfe'
Mistress
ArWhrath
Rieyac
Durin
Reconnecting with my Bf's from when I was younger
Keryn (havent heard from her in a while)
Priya (back in touch regularly)
Online:
Aya
Arphalia
Fox-in-a-box
Sorcerie
Disjointed contact:
Silverwing
Dreamaria
Tigrin
I do have alot of people I talk to online and if you are not mentioned, please do not be offended, I just do not feel we know each other too closely yet. | |
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| Anyone who knows me well, will know I love Orca as much as I love Horses and Cheetahs. I bought an Auckland NZ herald newspaper today.....why? Because there has been Orca sightings all last week up here!!! One of my lifelong dreams (bar the MJJ one) Has been to see or swim with Orca, be it in the wild or crummy seaworld. I often dream about them and they are very dear to my heart. The sighting has been in Murrays Bay North shore, and Rangitoo Channel.I read up a bit and sightings are more often at the Hauraki Gulf. Im looking up how I can get there possibly next week for a hopeful sighting!!! Costs around $8.50 each way, with two buses and plenty of walking XD More researching: Hauraki Gulf has its own 'dolphin/whale encounter' safaris: http://www.explorenz.co.nz/Whale-Dolphin-Safari/Auckland-whale-dolphin-safari.htmlAdults
| $150
| Children
| $100
| Family (2 adults/2 children)
| $390
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Bur it seems thier trips are closed, last ones listed were in 1 Oct - 30 April departs Viaduct Harbour
| 8.30am & 1.30pm
| 1 May - 30 Sept departs Viaduct Harbour
| 12pm
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So sadly no dolphin swimming for me this christmas. :( Ive known about the Orca/whale/Dolphin NZ tour for years, but its so expensive, one day ill go on it!!: http://www.firstlighttravel.com/group_whale_trail.htmlIts apart of Orca research. org : http://www.orcaresearch.org/whaletrail.htmPrice per person (subject to minimum numbers): - From NZ$6,875 twin share
- From NZ$7,565 single occupancy
But its worth it as you get to swim with dolphins in many areas of NZ and view humpbacks by hellicopter, Humpbacks are my favourite Whale. One day. I swam with Kaikoura Dusky dolphins when I was 16, Twice I do believe, and Once with the Akaroa Hectors. I really really want to swim with Bottlenose/common/spinners. I think im more likely to get a bottlenose encounter in Australia, sydney gold coast I do believe. If I did any of the more major/expensive trips in the future...who would be up to going with me??? I dont mind going solo, but its nice to share the memories and fun with others. - Emotion splat:ecstatic
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| I GOT ACCEPTED INTO THE ANIMATION SCHOOL omg omg omg THIS!!!
There is a teacher here who was working with Disney with a team when it was founded...eeeeeeeee im going to seriously cough up a lung if I get to art with him!!! *puppydog eyes of doom*
SERIOUSLY
After the interview I was buzzing!
oh oh and free passes to the Zoo all year long, YUS!
I am SO looking forward to this!! - Emotion splat:excited
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