Logged in to see an art-friend's post.

I can't remember the last time I was here.

Life is a bit wierd.

Blah.

I have some unfinished commissions that have lingered so long im eternally embarassed.

So if I owe you a commission, no matter HOW OLD
Please note it here.

I will send whatever i've done so far to you.

Refunds will take a while as I admit i'm a broke student, however I fully intend to refund. I just need an easily acessable list of who I owe what to.

I plan on getting a full time job after my studies end this year, re-instating my creditcard and paying everyone back that way. Then I only have one source to pay back.

I know that is a bizzare way of doing it, but honestly i've lost many night's sleep over this from anxiety/guilt weighing over me.

I did not intend to not finish your peices, however as it has been so long, I understand there is no more point to dragging it on longer.

I wish to clear the slate, clear my name and fix the wrongs and make them right.

So if you know someone who has been saying about thier peice from me, please direct them to this journal post. It is a public post to read.

Comments are annonymous. So please leave your current full snail mail, what you commissioned that I haven't completed, when you commissioned it, how much you paid, and your paypal address (I will cover fees too so don't worry).

I will be steadily working through these to pay you guys back.

From the depths of my heart, I am very humbly sorry.

Goodness time is moving fast O.O

My birthday is just over a week away..which means so is first day of second year of 2D animation school.
Kinda scared aye.

A friend has found a nice pub place that is a food place which searves very celtic meals. (by my request)
If anyone wants to come, ill pop up details here.

Its at 'The bog' and menue will be posted up along with time and date very soon.

Its in Auckland, New Zealand.

(sorry to my international friends who are too far away to be here <3)

Also, note to my christchurch friends, i'll be having a second birthday gathering when im down during my april holidays if all goes well. :) Belated yes. But its because my man couldn't be up here to celebrate it with me. So we've decided to do a 'belated' thing :p

Been having a helluva time trying to sign into msn, it keeps freezing up.

Ive got no cellphone credit. But some of you have my home number, email addys anyway.

So if ya wanna hang out/organising get togethers or parties.

Do let me know, 'cause so far life up here sucks.

I only have bus for transport too, so take that into concideration.

I love going to the beach and movies and dvd watching and pot lucks.

Please, next time any of you are concidering a gathering, perhaps concider inviting me too?

I realy feel like Ive no one to hang out with up here.

I have a friend I made at the flat sunday movie nights, stu. We hang out almost twice a week. But it's be ice to see other peoples too.

Kinda wilting here.

Im up in auckland one more year, then going back to chch to brave the weather..if its still standing and funds are available to do so.

PLEASE REPOST: QLD Floods, Fairfield RSPCA is going under water, anyone who can take in any animals please call (07) 3426 9999

(Queensland Australia)

PLEASE HELP IF YOU CAN!

Just cause I like making lists :p

Can my friends please post thier wishlists to thier journals too? I know some of you have birthdays before christmas. Durin we still have to catch up re- your birthday..been waiting for ya to contact me about it.
Lopfe' Ive got belated b-day prezzies in the works, as im low on art materials.
I also have your xmas prezzies from last year that you dinna pick up! *super sadface*
Also if you guys rather art, can ya post a wishlist of the kinda arts youd be wanting? I can only do one each this year as ive got commission going on, but I wanna at least do something nice :)

ok onto the list!

Art vouchers:
Warehouse, farmers, gordan harris, stationary warehouse.
Gordan harris is best as they supply the Faber castell polychromos pencils I use, I needa had-pick the colours to replce. (Some important pencils are smaller than my pinkie finger)

Art:
Any picture of my personas: http://moonfeather.deviantart.com/journal/34910709/
be lovely if it had one of your chars in it too..kinda like a 'friends photo'.
I'd be happy even with a doodle.
I love Dragons, Orca, Horses (Frisian, Arab, Saddlebred, Morgan), faerie themes, gothic themes, halloweeny valentines and Xmas themes. Food stuffs is kool too.
(I love personalised crafty gifts)

Books: See here http://moonfeather.livejournal.com/222281.html
Amazon books wishlist


Toys:
Junko Muzuno MLP
2009 MLP fair Peacock pony
Special edition 'Twinkle hope' mlp
Blank/white mlp
Breyer horse. Cancer awareness (pink seethrough Templado mold)
Breyer stablemates, cancer awareness horse (verra small)

Clothes:
Socks and lingerie. But mainly socks :)
No footsies (only covers foot) No toe socks! (shudders)
I love all colours, length anywhere between ankle and thigh. Im size nz8.
(I go nuts for stripes)
Lopfe' you know my lingerie sizes, so if anyone attempts clothes..ask her for sizes ;)


Misc:
MJJ t-shirt from the warehouse
MJJ's new album
MJJ 'vision' dvd set Info about it here
Michael jackson stuff http://michaeljackson.shop.bravadousa.com/Default.aspx
MJJ stand up cardboard cutout
MJJ 2011 Calendar
Michael Jackson Lock Bracelet
Michael jackson Amazon wishlist
"Be the change you wish to see in the world" - Gandhi. Tree of life necklace
"Starlight Sapphire" Unicorn Figurine
"Icy Enchantment" Wizard And Unicorn Figurine
Mimi Jobe Fantasy Art Charm Bracelet With Swarovski Crystals
Raoul Vitale Art-Inspired Sea Dragon Sculpture


I do have more amazon wishlists but I didnt want to bore you with them :p

Extra epiphany

Ive been on this healing process since 2005/2006 crossover.... Since the attack...
Ive had quite a few close people to me pass away..and that has slowed the process..as one would understand..

but gods...x4 years in settling back into myself afresh..anew...I didnt realise I had stuggled so long till I read my old journals....What a whirlwind I must have been like? I had no idea that post traumatic stress effected me so strongly........and that it was always me in the way of my happiness...that I was the one sabotaging my very existance...

but I guess only knowing things like that..can take time......realy time...for it to sink in and stay...and not be forgotten.

I am overcoming huge obsticles...and people are starting to see the changes.......they had been gradual..but now it seems..it is distinctly different...

Im not going to struggle to proove I am changing...only hope..that others can see it...aknowladge it...and be proud of my struggle to finaly stand atop a windswept hill with the scent of new beginings all around..free of scar or pain...my eyes glistening with finally a new way to see.

Ive been on a growing and changing path the past 4 months...realy looking at myself...
I had a dream, that I accepted the Phoenix into me....the symbol of rebirth..new life...burning my past..my fears my anxieties...I could feel it's warmth filling me..healing me..remaking me.

I have been such a jerk, a shit, a bi-polar volitile thing..and it repulses me...I hold so much guilt for my past...
I read through my journals today..for the past x4 years.

Who was I?....I read like a neurotic monster.......who was this person?

For within the past x4 months since that dream...I am no longer her...I shake my head and wonder...why..why am I changing now? Suddenly I can let go of my past...relax....

I am not who I used to be anymore...

I feel different.

Humbled.

For all my wrongs, for all my shames, I am sorry..so sorry from the utmost depth of my heart and soul.
I hope one day, I may be forgiven.

*opens arms wide for anyone who wants hugs*

HUG POST!

Yep its that time of the year

stress!

End of Animation course/ needing to figure what im doing next year/ trying to get a job.

On top of that, friends and family have requested I be in christchurch for xmas and new years..so ive been franticly trying to raise money for that..but gods! Xmas flights are expensive!

Not to mention trying to get a job so I can pay back my flatmate for helping with Littlefoot's vet bill (godsend, but omfg expensive!)

Finishing this weeks Halloween commission batch, then opening for christmas themed art.

These are little artworks btw, im still working on my bigger commission list as well, yeah im busy alright :D

Halloween art: (To be completed by Halloween) No postage
Nipper - Done
Sdelaforge - Done
katjakitty (teenycom) Done
aerotheacrobat (teenycom) Done

Christmas/Yule/Seasonal commissions
Opening next week!